i'm not okay

I'm not okay
I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
I never change

I'm not okay
I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
I never change, I ne-ne-

I'm still the same as I've been and it's getting boring
I'm not okay but I guess it's really not important
I hold myself back, too scared of movin' on
I'm lyin' through my fucking teeth when I say nothin's wrong

There's nothing goin' on, I'm just too fucking shallow
I can't keep goin' on, afraid of my own shadow
It's every single day, too many fears to face
I just wanted you to know

I'm not okay
I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
I never change

I'm not okay
I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
I never change, I ne-ne-

Yeah, tryna find beauty in this pain
Tired of feelin' blue and seeing rain
Need to find a way to rearrange
Always keep on sayin' I'ma change, right

Thought that I would've been better by now
Part of me's stuck and it's pullin' me down
I wanted to change but I didn't know how

So why can't I get out the way?
All the things that I wanted to say
Let me go and forget my name
My name

I'm not okay
I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
I never change

I'm not okay
I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
I never change, I ne-ne-