It Was to Be

I had no more than a window with a dense sky
Distant domes and seagulls
To fill me, again
And I smelled your hair
You never knew, I swear
I would have stayed there forever

Now you know that I would have loved
Silence that drowned out greatest fears
I would have given the streets of this blue heart
There was no time to go through them

There was no tears for us
Nothing to remember. A single golden hour
It was to be
Better day
Trying not to lose the way
Trying not to feel the pain of losing you

I've undergone
The evidence of being in love
The guilt of feeling alone
When I was with you

I would have walked up to hurt these wild paths
Crossing vast and green fields
Seeking a good way to reveal
How much I could love you

Instead, it is the time to drown in blue
It's a bad twist of fate
It was to be.
We shall conflate
Something that will never be and never feel
Simply what we should kill with a kiss and a thrill

How strange is the lot of lovers who don't choose to live
Who don't dare to feel
Unmentionable are their faults
The meaning of loss is written in their eyes.