hey deer, meet headlights!

I keep acting like i'm stable, like i'm built for all this weight
But every time i catch a trace of you, it all disintegrates
Thought with distance it would level out, instead i'm stuck in place
Guess the hardest part of losing you is living with the space

Im dodging every phone call like i owe somebody rent
Circling the highway 'til the fuel light turns to red
Wasting every fuckin' dollar that i know i shouldn't spend
Cus it's the only way i know how to feel alright with this
And i keep second guessing everything
Ask me how i've been but i can't explain

These days, i'm stuck inside a dream state
Find it hard to relay anything i need
Because each day, feels more like a freeze frame
I can't seem to create anything but grief
Because these days, i find it hard to see straight
Smoke at an increased rate, anything for peace
Now that each day, im running till my knees ache
Find it hard to replace what you used to mean

I shouldn't hold my breath
We barely text
A solid chance we'll never speak again
And all my friends have said
Its for the best
But i can't say i believe them yet

Cus i keep second guessing everything
Ask me how i've been but i can't explain

These days, i'm stuck inside a dream state
Find it hard to relay anything i need
Because each day, feels more like a freeze frame
I can't seem to create anything but grief
Because these days, i find it hard to see straight
Smoke at an increased rate, anything for peace
Now that each day, im running till my knees ache
Find it hard to replace what you used to mean

So please don't kill the lights
I can't lose this one more time, lord
Please give me a sign
Is there something left to fight for?
Tell me that it's not for naught
Tell me i'm not too far gone
Because this war is all I've got
But is it what I should die for?

These days, i'm stuck inside a dream state
Find it hard to relay anything i need