My Old Ways

I used to feel special
I used to play the fool
The drugs I tried don't work but
The ones they gave me do
They say I'm somewhat stable
I said "Well, I don't know"
I had the urge to stay but
They said "Ma'am you're free to go"

I don't think I can take it, I repeated what I said
I need to find some peace of mind in something else instead
I don't think I can take it, I'm repeating what I say
I almost miss the feel of being stuck in my old ways

I swear to God I'll be gone
I'm not a queen, but come on
It's funny how you'd rather hold me back than hear me out
You promised you won't
Do you remember? I don't
Too bad you're in it for a minute now
Don't know what to say
I'm high like every day
It's how I manage having me around
Everything's expensive, regardless
I'm like "The best things in life are filled with carcinogens"

I don't think I can take it, I repeated what I said
I need to find some peace of mind in something else instead
I don't think I can take it, I'm repeating what I say
I almost miss the feel of being stuck in my old ways