Drown it Out

Another December, it's not hard to remember
I'm controllin' my temper, but I'm still left with the embers
I suffer in silence, I don't need to write this
Hold on, just let me speak my mind

I need to get you out my head
I know I'm better than this, but you're in everything I do
Can you just let me exist?
Pick up the phone and throw it down, it's getting hard to resist
But I don't wanna hear your sound, I just need to drown it out
Gotta get you out my head, so I get back to myself
It's hard to quit you, like a drug, you're just so bad for my health
And so they say you never know just what you have, but oh well
But I don't wanna hear your sound, I just need to drown it out

I saw you in my dream again, I'm gettin' sick of it
You just love to torture me all the time
Disappear until the season ends
Not really feelin' it, it's been forever, should it not be alright?
It's gettin' colder by the day, can it just go away?
I can't tell if this is love or just somethin' I hate
I'm caught up in the middle, you're familiar with that sentiment
When I say I miss you I just really mean your innocence

I need to get you out my head
I know I'm better than this, but you're in everything I do
Can you just let me exist?
Pick up the phone and throw it down, it's getting hard to resist
But I don't wanna hear your sound, I just need to drown it out
Gotta get you out my head, so I get back to myself
It's hard to quit you, like a drug, you're just so bad for my health
And so they say you never know just what you have, but oh well
But I don't wanna hear your sound, I just need to drown it out

(I'm dying lately.)