headphones

I just wanna have a talk
About how selfish I am
About how little of a man I've become
And you say there's no rules
Tell that to my mum and dad
'Cos their answers won't be just for fun

Why can't I care about the big things in life
The words just drift all over my mind
A bubble I can't burst
Could this ever get any worse
I tell them I'm fine

I put my headphones in
Drown out all the bad shit
The fear of rejections getting ever so big
When the culture runs deep
Claustrophobia kicks in
And I'm left tryna break this fucking ceiling

I wanna tell them I care
But this pain I can't bear
Already tearing up as I write this song
I guess I'll just man up for once
I've had more than enough for too long

Now I see myself decaying
Why am I relishing in it though
I guess routines have their way around me
I feel these emotions fading
Cut ties with everyone I know
Can't keep a convo cos no-one feels real

Eyes on my back I keep watching
They all wanna see me lose but I keep winning
Do this shit solo don't need nobody's help
If you ain't fuck with me I can only wish you well
Say I ain't normal when they wish they were weirdos
Why I needa follow rules I ain't got nothing to fear for
Maybe this ego's why I'm here though

Why can't I care about the big things in life
The words just drift all over my mind
A bubble I can't burst
Could this ever get any worse
I tell them I'm fine

I put my headphones in
Drown out all the bad shit
The fear of rejections getting ever so big
When the culture runs deep
Claustrophobia kicks in
And I'm left tryna break this fucking ceiling

I wanna tell them I care
But this pain I can't bear
Already tearing up as I write this song
I guess I'll just man up for once
I've had more than enough for too long