Party Dress

You told a joke
Cuz my face got all flushed in the kitchen light
21
But you've been drinking most of your life
And I feel cold
While you're faded
Most nights
When did I
Lose the urge
To go outside

It's been a year and some
If I'm grown then where's my wisdom

You live like you're under the influence
Don't care who looks when you make a mess
I wish I was a little less
Scared to dance in a party dress

On the roof
They play games on white tables
I don't want to climb
What's to lose
But the rest of my dignity spilled on the bathroom tiles
I feel old
And like a baby at the same time
When did it
Become weird not to get high

It's been a year and some
If I'm grown should I feel this young

You live like you're under the influence
Don't care who looks when you make a mess
I wish I was a little less
Scared to dance in a party dress

Out of luck and I'm ready to go
Cuz the music's too loud and I'm here all alone
Should I just give up?
Shouldn't I be the type to be stumbling home
Dizzy and drunk
With the people I love

You live like you're under the influence
Don't care who looks when you make a mess
I wish I was a little less
Scared