Yes I Know I'm Always Late, No I Won't Be Getting Better About It

'Cause you keep saying you can't wait
I always seem to show up late
Always somewhere else inside my head
Without you, what would I be?
I love that you're no good for me
But I know I'll end up alone instead
I always overcompensate
'Cause I can't seem to concentrate
And I'm not sure I've slept the last five years
'Cause when I drink and hold my tongue
This smoking only hurts my lungs
Forced to laugh and try to hide my tears

Look inside me, you can tell there's something wrong
I'm so sorry, there's always something going on
Blink my eyes and snap my fingers and you're gone
Guess I should've known, I should've known it all along
I should've known it all along, oh

Now we're back where we left it
I can't change, you can't accept it
Yeah, but real talk, I was training for the jump
So I'm really not sure what you expected
Yeah, I try to keep myself calm and collected
To see the world through both of our perspectives
But it's hard when you acting adolescent
And I gotta be the grown-up cleaning up your messes
So take the call, I'm not really trying to text this
Or FaceTime to make sure you get the message
I can't get it off my mind, I confess
It's a struggle everyday just to love and not obsess

Look inside me, you can tell there's something wrong
I'm so sorry, there's always something going on
Blink my eyes and snap my fingers and you're gone
Guess I should've known, I should've known it all along

All the things that you told me, was there anything you meant?
And all the lies that you sold me, was there any truth to it?
Did you know from the start this was the way the story ends?
You fucking swallowed my heart, I hope you like the taste of it

Look inside me, you can tell there's something wrong
I'm so sorry, there's always something going on
Blink my eyes and snap my fingers and you're gone
Guess I should've known, I should've known it all along